I have not forgotten about you so soon dear blog.

Its just that I don't know what to write here.

An update bout myself? well, been going out alot, drinking alot and smoke alot.

I'm kinda tired of it already, but I rather do all that and don't have enough sleep than stay at home.

I hate staying at home... 

Chest Pain

So lately I've been feeling pain on my chest.

Its like someone is pressing my chest making me feel suffocate.

And this been going quite a lot lately.

My friends say its all in my mind. 

It happen coz I was stress.. Yea whatevesss 

Last night went out with my friend. After we ate, I suddenly felt chest pain again. 

So he touch my chest to feel how my heart rate are, 

with no doubt he say this is stress Jane, then ask me to close my eyes and he hug me.

I immediately push him not because I don't want him to hug me just because the moment he hug me and ask how do i feel now make me teary. 

I don't want to cry in front of him, no, to be exact I'm done crying! 

I don't want to cry ever again for the same reason! 

I just wanna be happy. :(

sometimes i felt inside me is empty :(

They Say Always Follow Guts

So, today i have an job interview at the place where I have been wanted to work at

But I don't know why I felt not going too

I know its only an interview no guarantee I will work there but still...

Hmm I hope I made the right decision thoo... :(

Life is hard, sometimes i feel i was playing the game 'in between'

Hopeless

I feel hopeless. I feel depress. I  feel bored with my life. 
I'm just tired.

Why is this happening to me? Confuse,sad angry and just depress.

I need an excitement in my life. 

Oh boy, how I miss my old life (not that im that old tho.. lol)

I'm not happy at my workplace coz i feel its so depressing here.

 At home I'm not happy. Outside sometimes happy sometimes not. 

Oh Dear Lord, please guide and help me. What should I do? :(

I'm soo clueless. I can feel that my brain is soo tired from all this shit..

sighhhhhhhh :( 

love sucks

It hurts so much i feel like dying!

What a great start for my 2014!! 

I can't do this

I can't stop thinking about this

what shall I do?

I NEED HELP!! :(

i need hope

i dont remember the last time we kissed, 

i dont even remember the last time we said i love you to each other, 

because i never think that the last time is the last time,

and i always think that, there is always more, more and more, 

and there's always next time, tomorrow, next week, next month, next year.

i thought i have forever, but i dont...

i need hope

Someone birthday is comingggg
Even tho we just finish for a long and tiring fight but now we are okay. Yay! :D
Pretty excited to plan and celebrate his birthday.
Hope he gonna love it
And hope this so call plan gonna go as smooth as my niece bum. Lol

And gonna buy pressie for him too. Gosh he already say what he want for his birthday and its ManUtd jersey. RM259 for a cloth??! You kidding me? Damm expensive! Lol
Have to follow what the boss want tho... :)

*crossing finger*

I MISS YOU SO MUCH 

I'M ABOUT TO GET CRAY CRAY NOW! 

"And when I fell hard

You took a step back

without me

without me

without me.... " -Taylor Swift

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could've been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that

You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart
You're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you 'cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't wanna a broken heart
Don't wanna to take breath without you babe
I don't wanna to play that part

I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinda way
No, no, I don't wanna a broken heart
And I don't wanna to play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
I'm no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up 'til now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still you're in my heart
But you're the only one

And yes there are times when I hate you but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you, I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't wanna a broken heart
Don't wanna to take breath without you baby
I don't wanna to play that part

I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinda way
No, no, I don't wanna a broken heart
And I don't wanna to play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away, away with you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh, oh

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't wanna broken heart
Don't wanna to take breath without my baby
I don't wanna to play that part

I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinda way
No, no, I don't wanna a broken heart
I don't wanna to play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl, broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl, no broken-hearted girl

Exactly what I wanna say to you.... :(